No more pencils, no more books....

And no more students! It's finally, and officially summer break! Well, actually, I have a few more days of meetings and classroom cleaning, but the kids are gone, so it's vacation! I really do love teaching, and I love (most of) the students, but it is sooooo nice to have a break from them. They really wear me out. I don't have papers to grade for a couple months... I don't have to listen to excuses and complaints on a daily basis... I don't have lesson plans to prepare... I don't have to write up any referrals. Ahh. I love summer.

On another topic completely... I though I had posted our "anniversary adventure" already, but since I didn't, I'll have to jump back a bit before getting to what I had intended to say... (This stuff does get a little personal, but hopefully it's not TMI!)

The Monday before last (the 19th) I had a Drs. appointment for an ultrasound so they could check my ovaries, like they do each month, to see if the medication was working. Well, the tech did the ultrasound, and then tells me I was currently ovulating and she gave me a 24 hour window, which sounds exciting, but (poor tech!) caused me to burst into tears. See, this was after 4:30 in the afternoon in Hanford, and Kyle started work that evening at 6:00 in Lemoore. I rushed home, but Kyle was already getting ready for work, so there was no time. I told him to get home as fast as he could the next morning, but he was delayed with some training after breifing, and got home 45 minutes late, and by that point I was rushing to get ready for work. Soooo.... I enlisted the help of a coworker (thankfully female, who already knew about our infertility struggles), and she took my 5th period class halfway through so I could go home and have a longer lunch period. So, despite two failed attempts, we were able to 'do the deed' within the 24 window that the tech gave us. That day was our anniversary, too, so it was a little adventure. So, if we got pregnant this time, our baby would be an anniversary baby, which would be kinda cool! We'd also know that the egg was from the right ovary (cause apparantly the left one is not cooperating).
So, on to what I was going to say. Today is now day 28. Last month my period came on day 29. So, I should know within the next couple days if it worked this month! Which also means that it shouldn't be too much longer before you guys know as well! I've actually been very patient this time, and the wait hasn't been difficult, which is unusual for me. I haven't been analyzing every "symptom" like I normally do. My body just messes with me and I trick myself into having symptoms, so I'm not reading into anything this month, and I've been much more sane! I'm not checking my chest all the time to see if I'm bigger or sore yet. I haven't been tempted to POAS (pee on a stick - or take a pregnancy test) yet, which is also unusual. I've been really at peace this cycle. It's weird. But very nice. While I still definitely want to see a positive test, I know I'll be okay if I don't get one. Sad, but okay. Assuming my period doesn't show up, I'll probably wait until Tuesday to test, when Kyle has a day off so he can be home when I do. I kinda have a good feeling about this time, but I really don't want to get my hopes up. Please pray we recieve good news! And pray that if we don't, that I'll be able to remain positive and not go through all the overwhelming emotions that normally come with negative tests. Thanks!

Quick little update

Well, I thought I would have more time once the play ended, but now I'm trying to catch up on all the things that I fell behind on, so I still don't have any time! The play went AMAZINGLY well! I am so proud of my actors. They were absolutely fantastic, and I heard nothing but good things from everyone who went, which is very encouraging. I'm now trying to catch up on my grading, which I completley fell behind on. And then it's on to making final tests, and all the end of the year prep. I am looking forward to this summer so much! I'm going to read a lot of books... catch up on scrapbooking... hopefully take a BUNCH of pictures... possibly take an art or photography class... and go visit my parents when my cousins are out! So excited!

Some random things....

Here are some updates of various topics...

The play I'm directing, It's Murder in the Wings, goes up this weekend if any of you ladies are interested in joining us! It's a very funny play, kinda with a Clue feel to it. It takes place in the office of The Wings Publishing Company, the evening of a very important party where they will be signing a famous playwright to their company, allowing them to receive a loan to keep their company afloat. However, an hour before the party, the boss is discovered dead, and the office ladies have to try to keep the party guests from finding out, while at the same time trying to figure out who the murderer is. It's a fun script, and I really, really hope my kids will do well! Their characters are coming along great, but a few of them still need to solidify some of their lines, which is starting to scare me this close to opening night! I know they can do it, and I know the performance will be great, but I'll probably stress a bit until its all over! Anyway, it's Saturday and Sunday evening at 7:00 in the Kings Christian School gym. Tickets are $5 and $4 for adults and students/kids, respectively, and there is a special family price. There are also discounts for moms on Mother's Day. So, if you and our hubby want a cheap date.... you're welcome to join us (and I hope my kids make me proud!)

Different topic... I feel like I've been slightly bipolar lately. Well, maybe more than slightly. I swear, I've been so emotional because of everything that has been going on, and one minute I can be completely fine and happy, and then I can be close to tears! It's really, really aggravating. These past few days have been really good, though. I'm really starting to come to terms with my infertility, and with God's plan for our life, and getting away with Kyle and then getting the good blood test results has really helped me out. Another thing that has helped immensely (besides you women and your prayers - I can tell that people are praying for me because I have been so much more at peace lately) is I joined a site called ivillage.com. Sarah joined when she was expecting Taylor, so I had heard about it, but I finally joined and started posting on the message boards for people dealing with infertility and using clomid. It has made SUCH a HUGE difference. I love that I have you ladies to talk to (some in person, some just on here, some both!), and I can talk to Kyle and my mom and MIL and my sister and SIL, but no one I can talk to (with the exception of one friend on here) has actually been through this. It has been so great to talk to women going through the exact same thing as me, and it has been such an encouragement to me. We've been able to lift each other up, and encourage each other, and I have "cycle buddies" who are going through exactly the same things - down to the day. I can't even explain how great it has been to have the encouragement of these women who really, really understand what I'm going through. It has helped make a huge difference in how I feel and how I approach this. It's nice to know I'm not alone in this, even though I wouldn't wish anyone else into the same boat I'm in. I am going to keep updating you guys, though. You guys (most of you) are the ones I actually know, and I am so thankful for you. Some of you were the first people we told - before our family even - and I couldn't get through this without you and your support and prayers either.

Alright... that's it for now. Time to go get some sleep so I can keep up with my crazy, hectic tech-week schedule! Thanks for your love and friendship!

The bad news, the good news, and the other good news.

Well, the bad news is that the dreaded period reared its ugly head yesterday, so this cycle wasn't it for us. While I'm disappointed, I'm really not that upset about it, which means your prayers are working! Thank you! I wasn't expecting to get pregnant this month, anyway, since at my ultrasound it looked like the clomid hadn't worked, so my hopes weren't up. However, this means that I had a very normal (very NOT normal for me) 29 day cycle, so I was kinda thinking that the meds did work, and that we just didn't get pregnant this time. My doctor confirmed my suspicion today. I got the results from the progesterone blood test, and it showed I did ovulate (yay!), so the clomid worked! This makes me super, super excited, because it means that there is a chance. I'll be starting another 5 day medication routine in a few days, and perhaps this month will be our lucky month.
The other good news is that we heard from the woman who was helping qualify us for a mortgage, and we qualify for a $15,000 Lemoore city employees grant because of Kyle's job! Super exciting! This means we have our down payment plus some, and it's making the home buying dream even more of a reality. Still a few things to work out, and we still need to find a place, but we're getting closer! Thanks for your prayers, ladies! I love you all!

Oh.... and I am still planning on someday posting about that Bible study I started... It's just been a crazy, crazy busy life lately. I know that's not an excuse... but, there it is anyway.

Disneyland!

Kyle and I decided that we needed to get away this weekend. We've both been so busy, and we've been under so much stress, and it was starting to get to us and our relationship. So we took off Friday evening and drove down to LA to go to Disneyland. It was soooo wonderful. We ignored all our problems and forgot about the messy house, the papers to grade, and all the baby stresses. We really, really needed it. We hung out in Disneyland all day Saturday, went to Bubba Gumps for dinner, then drove back and got home late. We so enjoyed ourselves. It was very refreshing. We felt like a couple again, rather than two people who just occasionally see each other in passing.




If this video works... it's me on the teacups!

We finished our weekend off by taking a long walk over to Rite Aid to buy ice cream! It's been a great weekend, and definitely what we needed.